The betrayer’s “...hand...is with mine on the table.” This phrasing to me underlines the closeness, the intimacy of the relationship between Jesus and he who would betray him. Judas was his friend and trusted associate. Indeed for something to be a betrayal, it presumes a trusted relationship.
Although Judas was paid for his act, he was not just a hired informant. Something changed in him. As Luke puts it earlier, Satan entered into the heart of Judas. What might this really mean? What was Judas feeling? Was it jealousy? Did he think Jesus had gotten too big for his britches?
Those are all rather familiar feelings. I know I have felt so at times about a friend or family member, and may have wanted to, or said something to cut that person down to size. And I also have felt as if I was cut off at the knees by someone whom I cared for. Have you seen a child’s spirit of exuberance being squashed by even well-meaning adults? How may that affect our ability as adults to let our light shine. Have you seen adults who cannot give voice to their own life spirit?
Perhaps Judas was afraid that Jesus’ actions would bring the wrath of those in power down on all of them. How often do I fail to stand up or speak up for what I believe is right out of fear or embarrassment.
When I begin to question myself I can see ways in which I do this, this betrayal.
God, You have invited me into a loving relationship of living Spirit. Enter into my heart, take my hand, and help me not betray Your trust.
Roisin McKeithan
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